It’s the first day of (tropical) Pisces season, and it feels like it. When I woke up, I felt a sense of peace and relief that was so distinct. My heart felt lighter, or at least like it was ready to be lighter. I took the cues from my body and spirit, starting my day with some videos from some short videos from Brother Insight, a Buddhist monk with a Qigong meditation channel that I frequently tap into.
I scrolled for a bit before getting out of bed, resisting the urge to scold myself for it even though it didn’t add much to my morning. Instead of getting upset with myself for not performing the healthiest morning routine, I just decided to stop. I watched Tatianna Tarot’s Weekly Forecast (which touched a lot on emotionality and moving from the heart) and then did a brief qigong exercise before making myself some tea. As I had my tea, I started to pray and heard a song in my spirit.
This led to me listening to several more gospel songs. The impromptu Sound Ancestors Studio session ended with Sounds of Blackness.
Somewhat surprisingly, this uplifting anthem is what broke through the wall that has developed between me and my emotions. I told my best friend last night that I felt sort of blocked but when I think about it, it’s not that I haven’t been connected to my emotions. It’s that the emotion I have been feeling the most is frustration. My other emotions just haven’t taken up nearly as much space as that one lately. I have felt sad, happy, proud, and many other things…but so much of my emotional landscape has been frustration and disappointment. These feelings are being channeled through work that I care deeply about, which is why it doesn’t feel like a bad thing. But I could sense the imbalance. I just didn’t know what to do about it.
So when I woke up today and those feelings weren’t burdening my heart the way they have been for the last 6 months or so…I noticed. And it felt good. When Hold On (Change is Comin’) came on, it made me cry. I haven’t been doing much crying lately. With all that is going on, all the anguish surrounding me, I have felt like I needed to cry - but I just couldn’t do it. The last time I had a good cry was several months ago, and it was out of despair for the children in the world who are suffering, dying, and losing loved ones. It was a build-up of hurt that forced me to cry.
It was interesting to me that what made me cry today was something so encouraging and uplifting. I needed that. I needed to remember I could feel and release through a different kind of emotion. I asked for my heart to be opened, and it was. Of course, it happened through music. Through a familiar frequency that has known my spirit since I was too young to comprehend the weight of the world that I felt, but couldn’t make sense of.
So I’m grateful for the energy of Pisces. These waters of relief are welcome and appreciated. I hope this season brings you the same and whatever else you need.
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Thanks for sharing.
I love Pisces energy so much. I’ve been go through something similar but the emotion I’ve been struggling with is Anger. Then yesterday I attended an online Susto/ Soul Retrieval, it was amazing I could feel the anger shift; it’s still there but it is now was rooted in love. Like a bear protecting their cubs. During the ceremony I cried three times but the first cry was out of happiness. Thank you for sharing this. May Pisces Season help us be in flow with our most authentic expression of Self.